In A Change ...

If you have noticed my posts are gone - good. I'm changing things around. Life is progress, I'm progressing.

"Utopia is the grotesque en rose, the need to associate happiness -- that is, the improbable -- with becoming, and to coerce an optimistic, aerial vision to the point where it rejoins its own source: the very cynicism it sought to combat. In short, a monstrous fantasy."~ E.M. Cioran.

The more you expand - take in, of others who at first seem to share your skepticism and passion to learn, the more you realize its limited capacity to do so. Limited to religion, science and medicine and stunted by dissonance and group ideological thinking. The more time you spend reading their shared views and whatever information they part your way - the less you view them as autonomous. Free - thought applies only to the expression or expansion of their worldviews, or their utopia, heaven or nirvana, complete with rapture.

Politics is the 'creationism' of Atheism. Atheists cease to use skepticism; logic and reason in order to validate their adherence to a political party. They, as creationists posting ICR links, will relay links and media they haven't researched or most times even read. They support the news and views within with blind faith. They post relentlessly the scripture of their political ideology - no matter the lack of merit or truth. Rub their nose in their apparent dissonance - and you will be transported into a familiar scene of debating the creationist. Fallacious reasoning and logical fallacies coupled with refusal to give reliable source, or any source to back assertions is usually ended with an emotional plea - a ridiculous one. Reject their personal "experiences," and you'll be "damned," or be told "You're not a real Atheist..."

I'm a blog reader - I read many blogs by my fellow Atheists. They inevitably all cover the same topics, over and over again. In humor, I call the topics the "Sutras of Atheism". There are times when I stumble across a person, who has retained their skepticism and has somehow managed to escape the ideological thinking that is becoming more and more present in Atheism as it grows in numbers. As we en masse in numbers and voice- the more we assemble a religion, complete with a rapture and heaven.

The 'rapture' is the rise of reason and enlightenment to man - religion will fall from the minds of all. We will be lifted from the tyranny of religion and given new life through knowledge. Following the rapture we will attain freedom from all abuse, all war, all the things that make us human or animals. Sin - aka ignorance, is the cause of all evil, and therefore"'knowledge" is the opposite or "good, benevolent and true".... 

We shall acquire this from repentance/atonement from our worship and adherence to religion. Knowledge  becomes God- and is omni-benevolent. Not sure what happens to those not allowed in the Atheist Utopia - I've read they get to sit it out and suffer their religion, separated from us(like hell, separated from God) who have attained heaven, so as not to bring us harm. 

Utopia - has a limited space and has criteria for entry, much like Heaven. In this heaven, utopia or nirvana, we shall implement religion, cough - excuse me, rules for the care and betterment of all man. Who will decide these rules and the direction of care and betterment for all man ? Well it's only natural those with power and with higher degrees of enlightenment shall rule our Kingdom, our Paradise. 

The promises of our reason are many.... Our God, we reinvent, is immune to rebuke and all created or done under its name is to be glorified. 

Reminds me of those seeking to be freed from the Church Of England, who then instituted the very thing they ran from ...  Or the quote I placed at the very top of this blog for that matter. It reminds me of many nations through out history and their societies. 

Much like theists, who now ignore science,  physics and etc out of dissonance, so shall we ignore what we know to be true in order to facilitate a lie we need to comfort ourselves with... We know what's best for all of mankind, right? 

Yea. 

We ignore the sciences too - in order to promote our Utopia - "fuzzy" for fuzzy logic. 

On a recent documentary titled "Universe," a scientist discussed the application of the 2nd Law of Thermodynamics in relation to social behaviors and societies. This is the same law and example I've read many times by atheists when predicting the end of theism- yet seem to think ours is immune or that the rise of atheism or etc - is not part of the decay, or the reality of social entropy and the further complexity of our social structure. Every system we develop requires energy- and gains in complexity, it grows exponentially in its needs...

Follow up reading is recommended on the topic of macro-sociological systems theory.

Laughing In The Calm

A few things I've learned:

Our social issues or behaviors can trap us and prevent progress.

Our refusal to admit to ourselves who we are and what we really want or need allows us to keep blaming everyone else for choices we make and circumstances that result.

 Local life is brutal. It's a never ending cycle of fucking themselves over. I've come to conclude they do so in order to hide self responsibility. It's a pattern of self abuse, debasement and desperation.

Recently someone tried to incite drama with me over a many years ago sex partner. It failed. I'm 41... Not 14. I'm married, and after everything I have been through, having children, growing up and learning to love myself and Jeff - my views have seriously changed. I've learned what love is ... It isn't desperation. That's fear...  I've had enough fear in my life. I don't want to just "have" someone - I want someone who I know, without doubt, loves me. I want it all... I don't have to settle. Saddens me to think of the times that I did. That was cowardly of me. It was desperate.

I suppose they thought I'd be jealous at the "players" in the script - but I'm not. I cared for them at one time - both I understand better than they understand themselves. One is desperate for a quasi-love/warm body to come home to, the other desperate for finances and easy keep ... No one doubts this, even if a stout defense is laid up. However, how is this wrong as long as both are being fulfilled? That may sound cold -but if both are happy, both are adults and it is consensual, why care? I have no doubt the woman involved can handle herself or any man - they will get the fuckin' boot... She doesn't bend much.

That opinion landed me in quite the argument...

I think that it may work out because both are supplying a need/want to the other. It's mutual. People act shocked, but really he would have been a perfect pick for her a long time ago. As for the odd woman out - she is young and average looking, but in a good way. She has issues which have been added to by the situation she has freed herself from. This is healthy for her. She will heal, rebuild herself and maybe refocus and eventually happen upon a love meant for her. One that doesn't hurt. One that helps you grow, not shrink.

We all have one - I hope. In any case I can't understand why people thought I'd respond different ...

I'm getting old and soft :P

Circulation

Homeschooling blogs/pages and articles on parenting will make you feel ... Blah.

They are soooo perfect.

Who are these moms that seem so organised and insanely... perfect?

I make playdoh, paints... I do crafts. I sing songs(sure they may be somewhat inappropriate ones, but I sing dammit) ...

I do "stuff."

Enough on that feeling inadequate. I need to swell with pride, not shrink with self doubt ...

Even as Taylor sits on couch naked eating peanut butter out of jar with a spoon. 

Moving on.